Abraham wrote this a few weeks after we found out we were pregnant.

I think I saw a double line! -she said with a trembling voice.
- You are kidding? Let me see. You are kidding? - I frantically wanted to know if there was a double line or not.
She put her hand out and we both witnessed, then and there, a double line indicating a positive on the home pregnancy test but just to make sure we would take another one the next day. To be even more certain we would go to the Women's Pregnancy Center a few days later and just to be even more certain we would go back to the WPC to get a sonogram of a very young fetus growing inside of her.
A few weeks before we were rejoicing over my brother and his wife with the news that they were going to be parents for the first time. At that time we had also found out that we had had a false pregnancy or a very early miscarriage. We would never know what happened during those weeks after our first positive pregnancy test but this time it was for real.
During our last visit to the pregnancy center I marveled at God's work. Having spent time studying the human heart I could not help but wonder about how intricate those 4 tiny chambers were. As soon as the nurse pointed out the location of the baby I saw its heart. I saw a little twinkling light beating at least one hundred times per minute and my heart wanted to match that beat. The nurse printed the first photo of our baby which I now framed and see every day before I go to work.
I always wondered how old I would be and what I would be doing when I became a dad. I never imagined it like this but when Sara and I began talking about it I knew I was ready. I don't feel ready but the fact that I am quite scared about being a dad makes me think that after all I am ready to take on one of the most importan roles of my life. I am scared because I know the seriousness of it therefore I will not let my guard down and I know what is expected of me as a father.
Our baby is due to be born in the middle of July and I am anxiously waiting. I'm trying my best to be fit for my baby so I can live a longer life for him/her. I am trying to be a better man, a better citizen and a better follower of Jesus so I can be an example for my son/daugter. I can't wait to hold my baby in my arms and even though I know the first months are going to suck with the sleepless nights and all that, I can't wait for that either.

Baby Update!

We went back to get another ultrasound and everything appeared to be normal. Her bowels were spotted but it wasn't a solid brightness like it was last time! We saw her taking big gulps of fluid while we were watching. The night before we told her to drink a lot of the fluid if she does not have Down Syndrome, and it looks like she listens to us! The ultrasound tech said that the doctor would look it over and if he saw any problems, he would let my midwife know if he wanted me to come in some more to be monitored. So far we have not heard anything yet. Everything still checks out well too! Thanks for keeping us in your prayers!

Complication

I don't know how many people actually read my blog, but if you do please keep my baby in your prayers. When we went to get the ultrasound yesterday, the technician found something wrong with the baby. There was not enough water in the bowel area. They said that it could just be that she did not drink that much of the fluid that morning, or it could be an indication of Down Syndrome. The doctor said that there are no other indication's that the baby has Down Syndrome but they want me back in four weeks to make sure. Surprisingly, I am not too worried. I'm just thankful that the heart, brain and other parts of the body turned out okay. You would never wish your child to have a disability, but I feel like if the baby does have Down Syndrome, it would not be the worst thing in the world. Since I had a brother who died, I have always had that in the front of my mind. Not to be pessimistic but just being realistic. I feel blessed to have seen such a boy and the miracles that he has brought to our lives. My brother has helped me see that even in the pain there is beauty. So, if it is Down Syndrome I know that she and us, her parents, will be okay. But just pray that everything goes well and that whatever happens God will give us the strength to deal with it!

Drumroll please!

So I went to get my ultrasound today. And I can't believe this but I am having a girl! I'm a little scared but everyone keeps telling me it is going to be okay. With the way that the women are in my family and Abraham's, she will be quite a handful. Don't get me wrong, the women in our families are strong, independent and good-hearted but we are all as stubborn and headstrong as mules. My mother is wonderful and I feel blessed to have such a wonderful and strong woman to look up to. However, I also know that there are many responses that I do not want to inherit. I can already see my mother coming through when I interact with my niece who is rather similar to me. And it scares me. Every parent messes up and it is inevitable, but it still scares me. I just need to remember to be conscious about my responses to my daughter. Thank God I can see how wonderful and big-hearted those women are. My sisters and I have turned out okay, so I need to remember that!

Schizophrenic Arizona

I am not sure how this is possible but our weather is going to be 80 degrees tomorrow and then in about three to four days the high will be 56 degrees. Only in Arizona!

For your info...

I am pregnant. Sorry Dan, for taking so long to blog about it! I'm pretty sure that everyone who reads my blog has already known this for awhile, but just in case you didn't know there is the official news. My first doctor's appointment is February 11. I can't wait! So we will see how it is going then.

Who do actor's think they are?

Lately I have been so frustrated that actors, musicians and sports figures get paid such a ridiculous amount of money! I think it is absurd how much we pay them. Doctors get paid way less but they are SAVING LIVES! And how did those doctors get to where they are? Through teachers. Unfortunately, our society values these people much more than those who make a real difference in other people's lives. Today I heard that they are considering an actor's strike in Hollywood. Are you freaking kidding me? I just have to say that I love Tom Hanks and George Clooney in their plea to not start a strike! The Screen Actor's Guild is infuriating! As if they don't have enough money!